This was that kind of week for me. I am going to share it with you in two tales.
The tale of the left knee
I had just concluded last week's class with discovering the power of slow and intentional effort in producing quick results.
While I regularly use the 'slow and specific movements' in my Feldenkrais Practice, I was inspired by the big changes that I saw in class. Standing in my kitchen that morning, I decided to make an experiment with myself.
I clocked myself for 15 minutes, moving just a little slower than my habitual pace - loading dishes, making breakfast, walking, reaching slowly. In 15 minutes, my state had shifted by leaps.
I sat in the car with friends, driving to the mountains for my ski class, pondering on the power of those 15 minutes and how I could tap into that more regularly.
Later that day, I hurt myself in my left knee while skiing! I went from 15 minutes of slowing down to moving slowly all day long! I was challenged to up my game to meet the new situation I found myself in.
Day 2, I reprioritized the day, did some gentle Feldenkrais lessons, iced my knee. As the day went on, I kept finding news situations that required me to adapt.
I figured out how to get up from the toilet without straining my knee, climbed the stairs going backward and found a new way to get up and down from the floor without bending my left leg.
Cool & fancy became resourceful
A year ago, I had done this movement as a Feldenkrais lesson, and had thought to myself – “That’s a cool and fancy move!”
What I didn’t know then was that in a different situation, that movement would become my resource for taking care of myself. Isn’t that what life’s about? About having choices. Having many ways of doing the thing we already know how to do?
Because when we do, we become resilient. We don't get stuck because the one way we know to do something isn't relevant anymore. We know in our bones, that we can find another way. It's that knowing that changes our attitudes towards the difficulty we're in. And that is powerful!
Apply this to getting up and down from the floor, can you imagine how deeply securing it was for me? The sense of composure I had from knowing that I can adapt to the circumstance I found myself in.
How would you describe that? Resilience or do you have another word for it?
What she helped me see?
Day 3, I woke up feeling much better and worked with clients in my Feldenkrais Practice. And guess what? One of them, a delightful, athletic woman, I really enjoy working with, had a knee injury from skiing!! What are the odds?!:O
What was truly amazing about this session was that everything I was doing to take care of myself had brought me to such a place of attunement and presence with her that it made our session incredibly productive and satisfying.
The quality of experience I had with her showed me yet again, the composure and compassion that comes from doing what it takes to bring oneself to a state from which choices can arise.
The contrast of the other tale
Eight years ago, I had debilitating pain in my right knee. The helplessness that came with it defined my existence at that time of my life.
I sought expertise but didn't feel resourceful in myself to make my life a little bit more tolerable. To watch and to track what I was doing and where it was taking me.
Do you see the contrast? The contrast between composure and helplessness. And the bridge that connects the two?
What state would you like to move towards? Write to me @firstname.lastname@example.org or post a comment here. It really makes my day, when I hear from you on the other side of this post!